I’d tell you that I have spent the week avoiding the Internet and people in general. I had to take my comps exams last week, and they didn’t go well–mostly due to test anxiety. I’ll have to retake them. I get one more shot, and I have 6 weeks in which to take it.
And so I’ve been hiding away for a little while. I’ve felt a complex surge of emotions this week, everything from despair to indifference, but ultimately it’s business as usual. After a day or two of wallowing in the pits of sorrow, then getting back into the sun, everything felt better. Freezing up on exams has happened to me pretty much forever, and at least I get to redo this one. I also had to retake my drivers’ test and qualification exams, the precursor to comps. Having an anxiety disorder means that literally everything garners attention and worry, and life altering events are particularly anxiety-inducing. Sometimes the anxiety-snowball wins.
I’ve got friends and family who make everything brighter, though. And I get a chance to redo this. Life goes on either way, and so I’m back again.
I’d tell you that I’m gearing up to discuss Peter Pan here tomorrow as part of the Stage to Screen Blogathon. I’d tell you to be sure to check out the other entries in the blogathon, as there are some wonderful bloggers talking about some wonderful works.
I’d tell you that I watched The Descent (2005) last night, and I can’t get it off my mind. The claustrophobia of wiggling through passages of the cave physically affected me—I felt my breathing a little constricted and had just an uncomfortable feeling. I wasn’t as frightened by the film once the creatures were on the scene. They looked a lot like the orcs in Peter Jackson’s LOTR films, and there was something more menacing about them when they were in the shadows. I was also so much more afraid of the cave itself, of nature and its terrifying capacities, the utter dark and utter quiet. It was fantastic, too, to see an all-girl horror film cast.
I’d ask about your Saturday and what you’d like to talk about over coffee.